U know sometimes life can be fine the issue bad and when it gets bad bad shit happens I mean hey when everything is good it's good and when it's not it's not everything is not in our control we mess up yeah but hey I mean we don't get to make all our decisions. When life gives us lemons U make lemonade look shit Andd when it does it's just plain shitty when they give u shit u make them a pie with thier own shit do they eat it and they will rot no one needs to know about what has happened life is urs to take into UR hands
everyone wants to be loved even if they dont show it so yes in some way i want to be loved but not by someone who cant even love them self so i say today i promise to learn to love myself before i love others because the question to be loved or not to be loved i cant truelly love someone eles if i don't truelly love myself first if i cant love me how can i love anyone eles yes i am a girl with many feelings but if i cant express my own feelings and be ok with those feelings how can i listen to others and feel for them or take in there flwas if my own are a scare and a question
looks like im going back to being a lesbian and i am so happy that ive made up with my mom things are going better she still is mad at me and she still has my phone but for the first time in a long time im happy because everything is fine and normal and i can live my life the way i should. can i just say that just because i have a boyfreind doesn't mean i cant be a lesbian again i mean i don't even think i stopped being a lesbian but it just goes to show that ive tried it both ways and i enjoy my lady kisses more than i love having a boyfreind i mean he is trully great except he keeps presurring me into kissing him and i havent kissed a guy since i was maybe 9 or 10 and ill be 13 in 2 weeks. Yes i like him and yes i trust him but i don't want it to be a total disater besides i only told him i liked him because he asked e what was wrong and if u count Bear Mountian a first date which i do i see no problem wit liking him but still being in love with a girl , yes guys are great and i like guys but i always seem to fall in love with girls the only guy i've ever loved and still love is Micheal because he was my first love and no one forgets their first love because guess what no matter what gender they are the person u love in the end will never care all they will care about is u and the child that you'll have and all the dates u go on because you'll be in love with that person and want to spend the rest of ur life with them. So yes its decied i'm a lesbian who has a boyfreind and i know what ur saying but what about him he's my now and when im ready to have my lady kisses back i will definetlly have them back
Life is and stupid, yes i know saying life is hard as the first thing u put i a blog is stupid but who cares. It's not like someone is eve going to read this people have much better things to do than to read a twelve year old girl going on thirteen's blog about how shitty her life is and how much she wishes that someone anyone would care enough to hear her side of any story. since u are my new best friend i can share things with you. My mother had an ice cream in the freezer for god knows how long and i was looking for a midnight snack. Yes i may be a dancer and quite skinny but in the middle of the night if i cant sleep i like to have something to snack on. Anyway i was hungry so i took it the next morning my mother went into my room while i was in the shower which may i say is some stalker shit and she went through my stuff because she knows i like to snack at nigh. She saw the ice cream cup and asked me if i took er ice cream i'm not dumb so i said no i dint take it so the bitch took my phone. So i was pissed at her i didn't even call her when i got to school i made my sister do it called after but i gave Adia the phone right after she ansrewed. Anyway when i got home i wasn't in the mood for her so i wet to my room turned on my sister's laptop and i started watching glee. When her and my sister left to go vote i stayed in my bed except to got get some chips it was late yeah but not midnight late so i was just an after school snack. When she saw i had the computer she flipped out like she had been drinking and i was doing something wrong. I had done nothing wrong but she took it ok i didn't care she was trying to make my life a living hell i got it that's what mothers do. But then she goes into her room saying her light is broken was i in her room now mind u i have't left my bed since i got my chips but she saying that i was in her room and i moved her shit i wasn't in her room so i told her i wasn't in her room but of course if i jumped off a bridge on command and she command it she would still not be satisfy so she said i was lying so we got into it and now its like my sister could get away with murder no matter what she does she never gets into trouble and i dont think its fair so i said so and the bitch walked away and said cause i know everything i might not know everything but there are some things that she doesn't know and i know them but even if i did she would not care because my feelings don't matter its like i'm the maid that gets to live in the house. But you know what just because my life is shitty doesn't mean i should have a shitty atitude now i'm going to pass all my classes do my chores but be the biggest bitch the world has seen cause they cant say shit to you if ur shit is together will got to run but know i'm going to be on top one day.
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